Queergenic

In terms of innerworld identity, Bryan is a cis gay boy/man who was not always aware of being in a body that didn't match what he saw himself as in the innerworld. In this respect, he embodies something that is physically impossible for our system to be (a cis gay man), even if we can be a man and gay.

Conversely, Blue is a transmasc lesboy who knew he was a lesbian since he was a child and was most likely abused for it, in ways that significantly impacted the development of our system going forward.

While Blixa did not exist in our childhood, they are the product of a transmasc agender aroace identity that Blue was leaning towards by the time that our adoptive mother died and that Blixa's Supercluster came to exist, thereby strengthening amnesia between the other superclusters.

Since we were raised by conservative Christians, we had to heavily compartmentalize any part of our identity that involved queerness. Additionally, while it's difficult to describe Bryan as a trans man because he was genuinely not aware that he was in an AFAB body and, thanks to the internet, he was thus able to live in a way where he was always perceived as a boy/man, it's true that we wouldn't have been allowed to be a boy if we wanted to. Blue being agender masculine and a lesboy seems to enforce that we had to compartmentalize our inclination towards masculinity and being a man.

Therefore, compartmentalization of aspects of our queer identity that our adoptive family would not have accepted would likely contribute to having to see ourselves as multiple people. Whether you count this as stress or trauma would depend, but we do not feel that that would have been traumatic in the same way that the direct abuse was traumatic.

Furthermore, it is only really recently that my system has come to understand that you can be a gay man and a lesbian at the same time. In the past, we either weren't around people who thought you could be both and treated them like opposites, or we just didn't understand the concept well enough for us to consider ourself to be a gaybian.

As a result, and since we would have already been plural by the time we were consciously aware of our queerness, it seems that Blue's Supercluster exists to manage the lesbian part of our identity, and Bryan's Supercluster exists to manage the gay male part of our identity.

While Blixa's Supercluster does not exist for queer reasons in the same way that Blue's and Bryan's Superclusters likely partly do, it is true that Blixa was just beginning to identify as aroace at the time, but also felt an inexplicable connection to the ideas of being both a lesbian and a gay man. Blixa's Supercluster now seems to manage aroace identity and gay identities that, while mostly veldian-leaning, are also more "uncommon" gay identities (e.g. mspec gay or cenelian/gay genderqueer).

The discovery of the superclusters happened shortly after Blixa had an identity crisis over whether he was happier being a lesbian or a gay man. While he knew you could be both at once, he also felt like he just wouldn't meet the definitions for both at once, particularly "lesbian".

While Vyvian is now comfortably identifying as an mspec torenamoric gay man, he also likes the idea of being a lesbian and his past that he partly remembers, being a lesbian as Blue. Therefore, Blue's Supercluster exists partly to give our brain an ability to have a self who is a lesbian, even if it is not usually in the conventional sense of "woman loving exclusively women".

At the same time, though, Bryan is also a gay man in ways that Vyvian is not. In particular, Bryan is more allosexual, less mspec, and is also genderqueer in ways that make him transfem, which is something that Vyvian does not feel that he can be.

While many people would not say we are a cis man or AMAB, and we do not feel the whole system is collectively these things, Bryan's Supercluster is because many parts of Bryan are, thanks to the internet, men who were always seen as men and treated as men. Therefore, Bryan's Supercluster manages that paradoxical experience of our identity by identifying with the body that would associated with some of the experiences we had with identity (i.e. being a man who was always a man and always known as a man), managing that simply through their innerworld appearances and occasionally drawing themselves.