Traumagenic

While some parts of the system could be endogenic, Blixa's Supercluster is undeniably fully traumagenic. Blixa is believed to not have existed until 2013, when our adoptive mother died suddenly. This was the most traumatic single event of our life, and it required us to cope in ways that caused us to compartmentalize parts of ourselves.

While we didn't know or suspect we had a system before that time, it seemed, from our perspective, that the early adulthood trauma of losing our adoptive mother caused us to develop a traumagenic system.

Later, we realized our adoptive father had been abusive, and we therefore understood we must have had some form of early-life trauma that would have contributed to the formation of a system. It is believed that there was a childhood incident that caused our adoptive father to start abusing us in a more intentional, targeted, and severe way than he would have been before.

Before that time, we would have had some awareness of his anger problems, and there would have been unhealthy strictness due to how our family and our community practiced Christianity. However, we do not feel that that trauma was severe, extreme, or physical. While we would not invalidate someone else's perspective that their experience was extreme, if they had the same experience and felt that way, but to us, it is important that not all of our trauma affected us the same way, so we find merit in saying some things were more severe than not.

In which case, if our system is completely and totally traumagenic, we do not think it would have come from severe abuse. Due to the incident that caused the abuse to change, it seems likely we had a system before that time.